Awakening the Beast

Many times in life I have had an experience with another that awakens the beast. When my beast is awakened he comes to devour and destroy any thing or any one who stands in my way or threatens the "peace" (status quo) in the valley. When I started writing these notes I didn't really contemplate how much would be lost in translation. There is potential for frustration but I choose it not. I recognize that the words, opinions and thoughts of all of you serves as a mirror for my own uncertainty. It also serves as an opportunity for me to clarify for myself what I am thinking. If I feel threatened or misjudged I see it is because I am still looking to please others and to have their approval. This does not mean that I do not value support from my friends but that it can not be the sole reason for my being. I can see that there is a tremendous opportunity for me to grow in commitment to my own greatest good. I choose to accept the good and the challenging words that I encounter since they in essence come from with in me. In truth, as I began to let go of this idea that intimacy (sexual or otherwise) only means as much as I say it does I questioned my level of fidelity to this position. So I knew that you all would be there to help me connect on a deeper level. As I am evolving I recognize that many of us have similar paths and similar solutions to life's opportunities to grow and then some of us seem to be from other planets all together but thats ok. We need each other in order to create the full spectrum. I chose to see it this way. So when I feel the need to defend myself and explain, the light goes off and I say Hmmmm that is interesting. Why is the beast (and I say so jokingly) awake? Why do I feel threatened? What purpose does this moment serve? And then Ta-daah! There it is. Another opportunity to commite to my own development. Thanks guys for being my magic Mirror.

Mirror, mirror on the wall who's the freshest one of all... there was a rumble rumble five minutes it lasted... you know the rest!