The Movement

I am a part of the movement in my life. I walk toward the wonder of fulfillment. I welcome the changes and the growth. I enjoy the discomfort of "coming unglued!" in my life. I am thankful for the people in my life that love me and encourage me. I open my self to possibility.
There are so many.
There is no doubt that change in life can come in an instant and from unsuspecting places. I have also experienced the truth that trust is not earned, it is given. In moments of intense growth and change we choose to give our trust to those who would receive it and support us in that emergent instant. Though I often think I am fairly knowledgable that does not make me a guru or a fool so my trusting will be better as I familiarize myself with the ways of God. And when I say God I mean God in all its many forms.
I recognized that I was never taught how to love and have been trying to figure out how to do it "correctly" for some time, in hopes that it would protect me from life's struggles. And as a rule I often ask myself, what would I want for me if I were in the other person's shoes. Sometimes that leads me to live free from conventional wisdom sometimes not. Sometimes I must dig deep to rise to the level of maturity to be the person I want to see in the world. Just how and when do we learn to love? Who teaches us this all important value? Do we abide by some universal definition? Can we make it up and then change it as we go along? I think so. There are some people that I love and I know why. Others that I love, I have no frame of reference, experientially to explain it, I just do. But I think the error here for me is that I am not talking about love at all but affection or a certain commraderie. As I think on it, love is a state of being which when known in earnest, extends to all things, situations, and people. This type of love is an understanding of my place in the world and the value God places in me and I in it. Love in this way leaves no thing untouched and is not limited by life experience. When I choose to connect to this love I can say I love you without hesitation. No matter who or what you are choosing to be in the world.
Now, being aware of this love, does it mean I must dwell in the presence of those who do not know my value or worth or choose not to connect with me. I choose not! It does not mean I love less because I turn away. In so doing, I honor my own creation path as well as that of the other. They are entitled to their experience in what ever form they choose to create it. I am entitled to mine. Today, I decided that I would not participate in a friendship that left me feeling less than valued. For an instant I thought, will this person understand? Am I running away? Am I over reacting? Can I help them? and then I realized that I am free to have what I will to have in my life and to gain the good I must risk. And so I kept it moving. After all, What do I have to lose in letting go of something that left me feeling small?